On this night
I felt a hunger I had never known
An raw need for sustenance
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My body was on fire

Trembling
Shaking
Quivering
I found myself breathless
Drops of sweat covering my skin

These feelings
Undescribable
Yet, somehow familiar
Understood
Something inside of me clicked
With it, came a sense of clarity
Insight to my true nature

My identity
I heard the voices in my mind
Saw the visions dancing before me
Felt the embrace of kindred spirits
The arms of old souls
Cradling me in their arms
Like a newborn child

It was a rebirth
The rise of a phoenix from past ashes
Hidden doors unlocked
Revealing secrets that had been kept hidden from me
Letting loose a flood of emotions
Feelings that had been dormant for what seemed like a lifetime
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This overwhelming desire to feed
Washed over me
Magnetic and powerful
This entity
Drawing me in
The thirst for blood
The taste of sweet nectar
Lingering on my tongue
Awakening my senses

I welcomed it
I felt no fear
No hesitation
I did not turn away from it
It was my destiny
I could feel it
On this dark, wonderous night
This thirst made itself known
This new, exciting life-force
The raw hunger
The desire


To nourish
To feed
It transformed me
Cleansed me
Baptized me
I will never forget it
The night I awakened
Walking into a whole new world
Bonded in blood
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Penned by my hand on the 1st of Haernos, in the year 112 MA.